I know that many of you have been wondering what happened to me. Did I give up on my faith, fall into religion, or just drop off the face of the blogosphere? Well, yes, yes, and yes. I am not going to lie and say that coming to Christ has been a bowl of cherries. In fact, I struggle each and every day, some days more so than others.
The past two years have been difficult for me in my walk with God due to the death of my grandmother in February of 2011 and then the loss of our church leadership in the past year. I am not saying that I turned away from God, but I did let the doubts creep back in.
My grandmother although weak, held on following my visit with her in September of 2010 until the next February, 2011. I still pray that she was able to come to know Christ before her passing. At least I know that she was given the opportunity to know more about Him, although limited to my meager attempts of explaining who He truly is.
As far as this past year with our church leadership leaving, this was my first experience losing a pastor, a youth minister and a children's minister in a church. Now, you would think that growing up in a Mormon church I would be used to transitional leadership, what with the rotation of members' callings to various positions in the church.
No, not quite the case. Since this was my first long-term Christian home, it surprised me that turnover would happen in the manner it did. That is all that I will say about this transitional period, but know that I took the transition rather hard, all things considered.
Of course, at the same time, I was going through a change of leadership at work and traveling on a regular basis. Needless to say it has been a stressful time. However, God has been there through it all. Probably one of the most exciting events that has happened in the past few months, September to be exact, was my opportunity to volunteer at the conference held by Revive our Hearts.
I will post a bit more about that experience a bit later, but it was definitely a drink of water that my thirsting heart needed. There is so much more to post, but for now I am going to close this post with a renewed thanks for the goodness of God. More to come!